I just have to say it - I know visitations are super important and part of the process, but sometimes I really wonder. I just picked up N from a visit and he was in tears (which, if you know N, you know that he doesn't cry a lot - it REALLY takes a lot to push him over the edge) and one of the other siblings was in tears. All because they were tired. They needed to be in bed. So I got N some water and packed him into the van to take him home - trying to soothe him the entire way. Keep in mind that I was now crying but not wanting him to know because I didn't want to upset him more. Very. Hard. So I just prayed. Prayed that somehow he would be comforted, sitting alone in the dark backseat, and that Kev and I would be reminded that our strength and protection comes from God. He guards us, (and our hearts), when we leave and when we return, He guards us now, He guards us always. (Ps. 121)
Kevin is just putting him to bed - he is a limp and tired little boy. Sounds like it went down without a hitch. Yea and AMEN!
Oh- I ache for him and my heart breaks for how your mama heart must feel. My prayers are with you, N, Kev and his birth Mama too. You are incredible.
ReplyDeleteOh Beth, I'm so thankful that N has you and Kevin. I was thinking what a blessing it was for N to have you picking him up when he was in tears after his visit with his biological Mom. For you to comfort his tears and to know what he needed. You are amazing!
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