Waiting, waiting, waiting

About a month ago, or so, we started teaching N baby sign language. He picked it up right away - which is amazing. I forgot to teach him the sign for "waiting" though - so we have started that recently. And, of course, he picked it up right away. He has about 5 words right now: Mama, Dadadada, (somestimes Papa, too...but that is pretty rare), up, car, and wow. Yes, wow. Isn't that funny? We think so. His favorite game is "chase" with Papa. Kevin runs around and pretends to chase N and he runs right to me - laughing this deep belly chortle that he has just started. They can play this forever...it makes my heart happy.

The visits were ordered to be increased, but they haven't been able to get things squared away to make it happen. This also makes me happy. Is that so bad? I don't think so - just gives us more time with the little guy.

I was cleaning out some things this past week and I came across some sermon notes from a long time ago. The sermon was from a guest speaker from our church that is a Young Life Director - he now lives in Colorado with his wife and kids. Still works with Young Life. OK - onto the sermon. It was just one of those things I needed to find at that moment. I started to read my notes and was in tears in seconds. The sermon was about "waiting for God" and walking forward in faith. Hmm. Not knowing what God has in store for us, but being faithful that He has our best in mind and to keep moving forward - knowing that He will direct us.

God has been so very faithful in my life - our lives. I never thought I would get married - always wanted to, but it just didn't seem to be in cards for me. I waited. Moved forward with my life and continued to trust that God knew my heart and whatever happened would be what He wanted. I met Kevin in my early-30's...and waited. We spent a long time getting to know each other and FINALLY got married when we were both 38. Long time, but worth the wait. Again, God knew what was best for me. Then we began to try to start a family. Miscarriages and lots of tears - and waiting. We decided to adopt - and then lots more waiting. Some families seem to gets kids quickly...not us. We have been "in process" for over 5 years. And now we wait to see what God has in mind for us and our journey to have a family. N has been such a blessing for us - he brings us such joy in the midst of all this waiting. Isn't that just how God works though?

So, as I teach N the sign for waiting (wiggly fingers pointed upwards) I am reminded that God is in the lead here. He knows our hearts and knows we are waiting.